Who wants to come and put my kid on the bus in the morning? Because that was no fun. Omg. Cole decided he wasn't going to get on the bus and go to school this morning, the 4th day of school for him. For what reason, I do not know. I just know that he has legs and arms that rival steel in strength, when he does not want to move and bend them to get him moving in a normal fashion. I had to let the bus driver go without both of my kids (yes, bc once Kirra saw that Cole was not getting on the bus, she was not happy. Poor girl was trying not to cry). I ended up driving them to school. And I proceeded to boo hoo my way out of the school, frustrated, mad, and defeated. Dad and Amy, you got the brunt of the aftermath, and just to let you both know, I am fine now. It's over, Cole is home, and our fridge may be a few beers lighter tonight, once this day is done.

Last night, I got an email from a good friend of mine, that made me think. I had said in my last post that I was fine with going with the dr that we met yesterday, she is nice, and seemed to be on top of things. The facility is beautiful, it over looks the lake, and is very serene. I could imagine having treatment there. But...given that the results of my biopsy are still inconclusive on my dx, I need to go and get a second opinion. I need to find out what I have, for certain. This is a one shot deal for me, I don't need to do this again. Jason, while your email frustrated me in the beginning, I know your intentions were only for my health and well being, and this morning, it helped point me in the direction that I am going now. I called Froedtert Hospital this morning, and spoke with someone there about getting started with a second opinion. I will go ahead and get the testing that I need done from CSM, since it all needs to be done anyways, but they will request all my records and look at it again. Froedtert has the medical college, and my first instinct, when I found out about the lymphoma, was to go there for all of this. I thought I felt settled last night with my decision on going solely with CSM, but knowing that I have Froedtert to go over it all, also, gives me even more security that I am going to find out an answer.

And can I tell you...I had no idea that there was so much love that one person could feel from their friends and family. Oh my Lord. I am moved beyond my imagination by everyone who has reached out to me, with offers of prayers, thoughts, food, drinks, childcare, subscriptions to the Butter Of The Month Club. You know what goes really well with butter? Lobster. Think about it.;)

I thank you and love you all. Xo